60 days at home.

Hey, hallo, hi,

60 days at home came and went, and now we are finally out of self-isolation in Austria. Where did the time go? I remember writing my first blog post in the early days of this self-isolation period, and so much has changed since. Considering it has now been a significantly long time at home, I thought it would be a good to write about my current thoughts and feelings on this experience. I had a lot of time to reflect, and there are a few things that I learned during this time that I wanted to share.

Firstly, how are you? I hope that you are healthy, happy and okay considering this craziness. How am I? Well, I can say that I am doing well. I wasn’t okay at the start of this lockdown though; I was a rollercoaster of emotions and was struggling to come to terms with it all. I also remember feeling the constant pressure to perform or to be productive and busy the entire time. Well, that went out the window and I am glad it did.

After 30 more days of self-isolation, I stopped putting so much pressure on myself. I also came to terms with the situation, and I let myself breathe and be however I needed to be. Some days I needed to be far away from my phone and from the news and other days I was super positive and feeling great. Again, I was a rollercoaster of emotions.

I am not quite sure when I made the ‘click’ and suddenly felt okay. Maybe it was after all of the baking we did at the start and middle of the lockdown (carrot cake, brownies, muffins, pizza…you name it). But, I believe it was when I finally stopped feeling so bad about how I was spending my time. I also think doing home workouts, reading and finding quiet time helped me a lot as well. Although I didn’t establish a solid daily routine, I did, however, establish a good night-time routine and made sure that I always went to bed early. Actually, now that the quarantine is over, getting up early and going to bed early has not changed and I really like that.

Things have drastically changed here in Austria. The shops are open again, restaurants and cafes opened a week ago and we can see our friends and family again. It is a little strange to go from zero social contact to 100% all at once. I won’t lie, it has been a lot for me, walking down the overcrowded streets.. but I am glad that things are getting better.

So, this is what I learned after 60+ days at home:

  • I love Vienna. Like, seriously, this city is great and I fell back in love with this great city and country I live in.
  • Every year I look forward to traveling and visiting a new place. Why have I always been so eager to rush off to somewhere else- when Austria and Vienna has so much to offer? I learned that I love exploring the city that I live in. Walking down new streets, or through different districts is so lovely and exciting. Austria has a lot to offer and I want to explore it more.
  • Having a ‘homey’ feeling home is so important to me. I have known for a long time that I am both an extrovert but also an introvert. Having a nice, relaxing space to live in has become really important to me. I just want a home to feel completely happy in. (We are finaaaally working on our apartment now).
  • I learned a lot about myself and realised that I just don’t have time for negative people and their influence over me. There are some people in my life that really affect me in a negative way, and I guess I just need to avoid these people more. I know that I want to only surround myself with people who only want to see me do well in my life.
  • This whole experience made me realise who the people are in my life that really matter.
  • We really need to start making our health the top priority.
  • I knew this a year ago, but now it is an even stronger feeling – it is that I just want simplicity. Things don’t matter, in fact they often make me feel overwhelmed when I have too much ‘stuff’. What matters is how I feel and not how my life looks like to others. It is about who I am and who I am surrounded by. Our life and happiness are not determined by the possessions we have. Maybe it is for some,  but for me it really isn’t.

I hope this all made sense. Sometimes my mind is a jumble of feelings and emotions and it can be hard to get it all out. But to summarise, I am in a really good place. My priorities have really changed since this whole thing began and where/to who, I give my energy has changed. I found this quote as well that I really like and wanted to share with you all. “In the rush to return to normal, use this time to consider which parts of normal are worth rushing back to.”

I would love to know if you had similar realisations or learned something as well during this stay-at-home time. Let me know, let’s chat about it.

Stay healthy & happy,

– CC.

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